W h e r e Y o u A r e/.

2007-08-13T00:19:00.000+08:00

Thunder hits.

It never misses a beat.

Its a constant blitz.

It doesn't retreat.

Lightning clashes.

The sky turns an ecstatic blue.

The world crashes.

And I'm stuck thinking of you.

Your stuck in my mind.

Rendering it impossible to think.

My vision goes blind.

And my brain floods with ink.

The smile on your face

That caches me completely breathless

The way you look at me

That leaves me motionless.

The conversations that we have

That keep my heart beating fast

Memories left unspoken

That forever lie in the past.

So take my hand.

Open your heart.

This wasn't planned.

But Ive loved you from the start.

2007-08-11T22:38:00.001+08:00

HELLO. So after much hiatus, im back again.
To upload photos.
I'm just.fucking.lazy.to.type.

Without a doubt, lots had happened and precisely because LOTS had happened,im jus too fucking lazy to type em out.
Had camwhorin session w Serene today and photos turned out nice and i wana upload em and i wana show em to the whole world.hur.
And Haopin, love the chatting session.I cant believe we sat in Starbucks and ditched the Sentosa outing.HAHAHA

ok bye earthlings. (:

2007-06-16T19:10:00.000+08:00

I've been watching your world from afar,

I've been trying to be where you are,

And I've been secretly falling apart,

I'll see.

To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,

You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,

You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,

You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.

And when I wake you,

I'll be the first thing you see,

And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,

Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,

And I know, the waiting is all you can do,

Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,

You'll fall asleep, I'll put a spell on you,

And when I wake you, I'll be the first thing you see,

And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,

You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,

And when I wake you, I'll be the first thing you see,

And you'll realise that you love me,

yeah... yeah... yeah... yeah... yeah...

Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful (I'll Put A Spell On You)

2007-06-16T16:26:00.000+08:00

its been quite a hectic week and i decided to go out once in a week only.
went to pay the fine today and quickly rushed hm to sleep back.
im fucking exhausted.

headed to town last night after work to meet up w hannahanna and fuck la,
I MISS TOWNING WITH HER YOU KNOW.

since i mention work, i was moved to level 3 to handle claims.
I OH SO LOVE THAT PARTICULAR ROOM OKAYYYYYY
an eyecandy sat facing me and another one right in front of me.
one has a really sexy voice plus accent (shes from scotland), and she looks a lil bit like lucy liu.
i know zihui, youre jus plain jealous that i got to shake her hand on my first day of work.ho ho.
and the other, is soooo darn sweet and full of compliments.
i think shes uber nice n sweet.

and the thought of having to come to work tomorrow, on a sunday, suddenly dampens my mood now.bahalol.

happy weekends people

2007-06-10T23:27:00.000+08:00

kiss me beneath the milky twilight.

Lead me out on the moonlit floor.

Lift your open hand.

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance,

silver moon's sparkling.

So kiss me.

kiss me - sixpence none the richer

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and so, it was like any other Sunday. Homely,dull, you name it. Went for a shopping spree two days back and spent a total of 187 dollars.Leo is sucha fucktard. And apparently a couple spotted me at City Hall, which is, seriously? IS THE MOST FUCKED UP THING THAT CAN EVER HAPPENED! ARGH. I dont like you know, being spotted by anyone, anyone who aint exactly people i know. And there's a story behind it, sooooooooo, that just makes it all the more, yes,

worst.

and so, i received an interesting sms from nadira which said "leo,if i tell you, flirting with disaster is the modern love, what do you make out of it?" and of course, I couldnt answer. Can you?

I mean, flirting with disaster, isnt that equivalent as courting trouble? And I dont know what the fuck is modern love. Dont even ask me what is love. I dare not answer that question.

tomorrow marks the first day of work for me. and im not gona say where. just in case theres any unwanted homo sapien readin this blog. money is like the only thing on my mind, for past ages. girls? dont even mention about them.

speaking of which, i might have quickly get myself out of one big big web ever spun by strangers ive never even met, people i dont even give a tiny fuck for. and look at what theyve got me into.

we are all linked. the "community". and i hate it, detest it. and no matter how good of a front i put, im pretty damn sure im already being blackmarked. lets not mention names, cos they have such fugly names.ha ha.

i was reading a book and it mentioned abt "moving on". which is something, annoyingly, that has been on my mind alllll the while , while i convert oxygen into carbon dioxide.

confession is another thing. and moving on.....

its simple, but its what i ~~left~~ trying to leave behind that makes it so tough.

2007-06-06T21:50:00.000+08:00

told you i'll be here forever

im oh so fuckin bored right now and what else is there to do other than .......?
ah yes, msn & blogging.

im currently living my days off like a fresh from O's student, bumming around at home like noone's business, indulging in many many sinful things such as one whole box of Apollo chocolate coated cake.
Leo's gonna turn into one hell of a fatfuck.

i know this entry is like so...not interesting ar?
so i shall i stop here.

2007-06-02T21:39:00.000+08:00

i wish you knew how to talk nicely and that people actually DO have feelings.
ive always been sucha HUGE disappointment.
ya, like whats new?

im never good enough for you, never good enough for my folks, never good enough for anything
at all.
im jus never good enough.

so perhaps i should start living like a pathetic loser.

fags and booze,anyone?

2007-05-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

you missed it.

2007-05-28T22:43:00.000+08:00

and i wish i look like . . .

Tyson Ballou

come july 1, no smoking in clubs and pubs.one word.BABI.
whatever la.i probably go outside n smoke.
argh.what a boohoohoo news.

2007-05-27T14:41:00.000+08:00

" I am no one special. Just a common man with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who ever lived. I've loved another with all my heart and soul and for me that has always been enough. "

2007-05-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

thanks sarah yap, hahaha and now ive been tagged. (:

10 random things :

1) i'm particular about my vegetables.i only eat the leafy green ones and carrots.

2) i wouldnt get out of my house if my hair looks like a piece of shit.

3) i'm DARN self conscious of my hair.and err,my ladylike fingers.pfft.

4) i've always wished i look like a model.HAHAHA.yes, go ahead and laugh.

5) i think im too nice.closer friends would get what i mean by that.

6) i dont know how to tie shoelace. =( yea yea, laugh laugh.and im serious okay.

7) i love love love loveeee Carmen (Sarah Shahi) from the L word.

8) i wish i was taller.

9) i enjoy plucking out my brother's leg hair.

10) you know those direction signal thingy in cars/cabs/buses?like when you wana go to the right then you got to signal to other moving vehicles?i used to think that vehicles are so smart that they know where to move.i thought those signals were automatic.

2007-05-20T22:47:00.001+08:00

AAAHH

finally blogger allow me to create a god damn new post!

and hello people.apologies for the long hiatus. (:
though i know no kind soul would read this blog.

had a bbq cum class gathering on friday for serene's birthday.
was good to see all the familiar faces again.(:

and i have to tonnes of pictures to post!
so, embrace yourselves.HA.

Camwhoring with hanna-su with vintage glasses :

Camwhoring after Aliff's gig:

2007-04-29T09:28:00.000+08:00

an uncle passed away earlier last night and i admit, it really came by as a really unpleasant surprise.
and i dont know why, im like scared now.
time is flying so darn fast and i really wonder if ive been spending enough time with the people around me.

met up with su-hanna recently and i really hope shes feeling better?yes?hahaha
chilled at billy bombers to make use of the $15.00 off voucher i've got and WHEE! was given
another one when we left.liping was one hell of a funny girl.
and shes so nice you know. (:

went back to school on friday to get the graduation gown and also to visit laney and mann,
i miss school.
i miss sitting in the LTs dazing away, laughing and talking to my classmates instead of paying attention, making grand entrances into the LTs especially during early-in-the-morning lectures and oh oh oh,
checking out eyecandies. (:
and did i mention how "NICE" the gown looks?
yeah its very nice you know.and my 50 dollars was gone for that day.
50 dollars could have gotten me nice shirt(s).and i mean, really nice shirt(s).

was supposed to meet ______ today but phew,
she backed out cos she said shes so sick?

ouh welll.

all the more i should spend my sunday resting.

and guys are real pain in the ass. ok. random.

2007-04-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! (:
did anyone miss me?no?

so i started working on the 16th, and myyyy...hahaha ok.i shall shut up.no comments for first day of work.
my partner really looks like the south korean shooter of the virginia tech massacre?
sometimes it scares the shit out of me.but hes nice.(:
and i think hes sponsored by Fila.
cos he seems to be wearing Fila like.every single damn day.
i forgot whats his name.

and days before that i spent a whole load of time at home.msning.
and msning.HAHA
and i finally met up with Laney lah?
we just couldnt stop talking till we didnt even realise we sat at Gelare for i dont know how long.
we just cant stop talking lah.period.HAHA
shes like the coolest person ive ever met. (:

and now,im jus still pissed that my ATM is not working?!
this is why i used to always carry cash and i nvr had an ATM card.fuck.
machines are supposed to make humans' lives easier.

well, i seriously dont think so.

2007-04-14T01:00:00.000+08:00

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I've ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I've ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony

Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back

You're just the best I ever had

The best I ever had

The best I ever

Best I Ever Had - Vertical Horizon

till then, no updates.

take care people.

2007-04-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

ah.so much for that bad day huhs.
someone told me my mood can have drastic 360 degrees turn.
and i couldnt agree more.HAHA.

anywayyyyyyyyyy

bad days aside, i got myself vidal sassoon (i cant spell the darn name) straightener!WHEE.
and qahar was so jakon(swakoo in malay) , he gladly helped himself with it and straighten my fugly hair.i think i need to trim lah.its like..growing in a really fugly way.
to think he would be so excited over sucha girly stuff.

and oh, he uses it too now.hur.

i think my social life is so boring.
laney is right. i so need to get out of my house often.
and meet new ~~girls~~ people.

and i feel like eating cheese prata now.
ok random.
bye.

2007-04-11T21:31:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really dont mean to be nasty.
but i think i seriously have/had to.

cause sometimes its no good being too nice, doesnt pay to be kind.

so if you think ive hurt YOUR feelings.
think back.
think of MINE.

then maybe, i wasnt/am not nasty after all.
you deserve it.

2007-04-11T17:26:00.000+08:00

Credits to Nora Suzanna.

2007-04-08T18:44:00.000+08:00

good friday was awesome.
never in my whole life i got myself so tipsy ever before.
but hell, that night was awesome.
(:

no doubt that all this while youre the only one in my mind.
and heart too.
i've never stop falling in love with you.
and i doubt i would ever will.
its just too bad that some things are better left unknown.

and some people, i just can never understand.
barely a month of getting to know each other, never did i ask for a meet up, a date,
never did i say "i love you" or even a mere "i like you"
and fucking seriously,
just where the fuck did the issue of getting too emotionally attached come from?
fucking ridiculous,
that is all that i can say.

nice to know you anyway.real nice.

2007-04-04T21:30:00.000+08:00

and all those tedious stock taking days are over.
it's really good but kinda weird at times seeing yanyan around.hahaha
its been too much of a coincidence , i still cant believe it. (:

life's been pretty much a routine for me.
all i can think of right now is money.
yes, believe it or not.
not girls, not love, just the cash.

and thank god, bit by bit im letting everything go.
if ever one day, our paths just do not cross anymore,
thanks for the memories.

and a happy birthday to qahar. (:

2007-04-02T19:09:00.000+08:00

had gooooooddd time with old man kabi (hes 27.*chuckles) and im so glad that the happy sticks are here!(:
NOW.something to take my mind off so many things.
and i definitely learnt alot through our conversations.
see, thats one major good thing about mixing with the older people.
you learn alot and they make you feel better about yourself.
well, at least, i did.
little did i know that we would actually meet up for a chat.i didnt foresee this coming when i first met him in the oh-i-wouldnt-wana-remember itcu lab.

and he fucking told me there are some things which are still feminine about me.fuqker.
he wouldnt wana tell me what is it.

back to work for the next two days at an earlier time.
till then, fag break now and my mom just asked me to go downstairs to buy chickens.
grr.

2007-04-01T21:57:00.000+08:00

all those emotions had been taking a toll on me.
its been a bad dream after another.
frankly, as much as i dont wanna wallow myself in self destruction, i cant help it.
and i really miss you, ________.
though i know nothing anyone can do can bring you back.

looking forward to meeting kabi tomorrow.((:
my all time favourite guy to talk to.
it came as a big surprise to me that we share so many similar views on lotsa stuffs.
plus, to top it all up, we both are bunch of emo bastards.HOHO.

2007-04-01T03:01:00.001+08:00

its nearing 3am and im still youtubing watching marc anthony.
i know some of you like to make fun of him.
but OI.
my idol okay. (:

not only that hes one of my hella favorite singers,
i look up to him cus hes skinny too!
most girls always mention how small size/skinny i am.like its a huge deal.
well, as skinny as he can be, he managed to nab a fcking sexy latin girl.
i know it sounds stupid, but it could boost my confidence know.
yeah i know, dream on.
i can hardly see someone near to America Ferrera(Ugly Betty), let alone Jennifer Lopez.
but heck, i do not care.

check out this vid with them in it. a darn nice song.ask me if you want the song.
mine's the ballad version though.

No Me Ames

2007-03-29T23:53:00.000+08:00

did i ever mention how fucking cold marina square is?
i think they must be so god damn rich, they can afford high bills for aircon.
it feels like canada whenever i enter the freaking mall.
i should have worn the hundreds of dollars jacket that planet traveller sells. its so darn nice okay.
too bad i dont have a reason to wear it in my country. work's been stressful lah lately.

plus, today is sucha fucked up day.
for the 738383786766th time, there it was.
the same shit happened again.
it was like i paid $10.90 for a scoop of nice sweet looking but worst tasted ice cream.

just when i thought ive met the right one.

why god why.

sometimes i wonder if im a mess magnet.

or is it just me.

this just fucking sucks la.period.

2007-03-26T00:32:00.000+08:00

it was sucha lazy sunday.
but it was good though. its been a long time since i had a good rest sufficient enough to replace all those used energy on stock taking.
today's the day.

and just fyi.im not gona blog as often anymore.hee
im just kinda lazy and i rather keep my thoughts to myself nowadays.
and random thought : is being a great talker a good thing?
i dont wana be labelled as a "sweet talker" cos i personally think that sweet talkers are bunch of assholes.
hahaha =x

i was just talking about girlfriends/boyfriends with my best bud and she totally describe the qualities i look for in my partner.

emotional wreck ones are huge nonos for me.
in case some of you think im a freaking huge flirt, well im not you know.
sometimes i do feel misunderstood.
and i can fucking be committed one if i found the right one.
and if theres one thing you should know about me,
i dislike being tied down.
i like it if gf is stable & independent.

and its darn hard to find someone who can talk to you on the similar level, dont you think so?
you might think you can talk, yes.
but it wont work either if you end up talking to yourself while the other party gets bored and start filing her nails or something.

but i guess you'll know it when that someone comes by.
someone who thinks the same way as you and both of you just cant have enough of each other.
someone who accepts us for who we are.

im a sucker for great conversations.

they turn me on.

2007-03-19T22:41:00.000+08:00

today is just damn fucking funny day.
it's a real private joke so too bad i cant share it here.
heh heh heh.

and i saw this cool black man (black as in nigga) using my legendary phone.
YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY I WAS.
it was like i found my soulamate you know.HAHAHA.
i know its time to change my damn phone.
but im jus fucking stubborn.
till i feel like changing it,i will.
besides, do you know that my phone makes sucha great ice breaker when getting to know new people.
and nope, i dont give a fuck of what people think of the things i own.
and if they are gonna judge me by the things i own,good for them.
provoke me and i'll throw the phone at you.
and after that, it's still in good use.

im getting brokerer and brokerer day by day.
and ive been like a pig ever since i started working.
eating should be a nono for me.
money gone.weight gain.
never mind if i gain weight on my body,arms etc.
but my face is always the main target.
i dont wanna look like a walking "pau".

letting go of you might be working right now.
i dont know if thats something to be cheering for or not.
but to me, it definitely is.

i shall heed ms b's advice to "always keep options open."
for now, that is.
shane's right.
love's a bitch.

2007-03-18T22:21:00.000+08:00

i never knew how much of a careless fucktard i am until i saw this ugly red mark on my right wrist! whenever i wear my watch theres always this tinge of pain i would feel but it never came across my mind to actually check if i got hurt.
and NOW then i know. i forgot what happened that caused that ugly red mark on my right wrist. there goes my beautiful sexy skinny wrist.ha.ha.

was youtubing and i happened to catch Vitamin C's vid.that graduation song.
and i thought of my classmates. 3 years had gone by and in May we will all be screaming "graduation!!".
i would love to write a "graduation speech" and post it on my blog for you all to read but im just so fucking lazy to do so.heh heh.

but rest assured i would definitely remember each and every one of you. i just cant help but wonder what would happen to us 5-10 years from now.
maybe i'll ~~turn into some hot babe with gorgeous hair sashaying along the streets~~ still be the same. and some of you, earning huge huge bucks.shrugs.
whatever it is, i wish you guys all the best. =) shall leave you with my favorite photo of last day of school!

2007-03-17T22:41:00.000+08:00

catching up with sarah yap for her lunch break was great indeed. =)
and im still not happy the 7-11 girl yesterday got me the wrong ciggies.hmph.

work's been great..
mary, the manager is so nice.and cute. (:
she allowed us to knock off 2 hours earlier yesterday.
fucking cool.

i cant wait for the pay.
i fucking wanna buy stuffs and bum around and fag and go kbox and get wasted.
ive yet to celebrate.

took a bus home after i got my dvd back from the bro's friend when i saw this girl came up to 2nd level too.
she had this sad/exhausted look on her face.
reminds me of myself.
poor girl.
i hope youre alright.

2007-03-17T18:55:00.000+08:00

Patrick Dempsey (Grey's Anatomy)

2007-03-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

i tried to push it away. i swear i really tried.i tried to deny it.and just cant.

what. the. fuck. is. wrong. with. me.

i would seriously do anything not to be looking at you.

its just too bad theres noone to tell to.

i fucking can tell noone.

as much as i know the sticks are bad.

dont lecture me.

those fucking sticks would be my best friends from now on.

chain fagging here i come, whenever i need you.

have a great weekend.

and life.

I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why

2007-03-14T22:34:00.000+08:00

HEY HEY YOU YOU I PASSED ALL MY EXAMS~
*sings in tune with Avril's "Girlfriend"

this is fucking fantastic.
tonight is damn fucking fantastic.
i dont care if i use 646734048174 fucking in this entry.
but im just DAMN HAPPY !
though my gpa sucks fucking big time.

but who fucking cares!i dont!it fucking rised lah god damn it.
this feels like good sex.
no.
in fact, this is better than good sex.

OH
and i saw two fucking hot transvestites on the bus home.
fucking hot okay.
if i was a guy i wouldnt mind dating him.her.

AAAHH FANTASTIC NIGHT

I FEEL LIKE SITTING DOWN AND HAVE SCOTCH AND SMOKE TILL I DIEEEEEEE

LET ME SHOW YOU ALL SOMETHING I FUCKING LIKE MACHIAM FUCK LA.

Academic Status: COMPLETED COURSE OF STUDY FOR THE DIPLOMA IN INFO-COMMUNICATIONS

2007-03-14T00:41:00.000+08:00

~~the truth is i'm still waiting.~~
~~and it has always been you.~~

maybe we are not meant to be.

2007-03-13T08:53:00.000+08:00

Day 1 at work was damn hilarious.Tiring, but hilarious.
And it's the first time that i'm working with hanna-su.
Couldnt get any funnier.

And as time passed, my handwriting gets fuglier lah damn it.
(it's a stock taking job.)
Had a gooood laugh over some of the products' description.
Hanna-su said out the codes and description while i write and occasionally there would be description such as "caribee fresh 30+5"
So when she said "30+5" i went to do mental calculation and actually wrote 35 on the damn paper.hurhur.
What else was there for her to do apart from laughing her ass off at me and say "I also know how to count you know."

And we became cock eyed la aft hours at the store!
There was this particular stock that she couldnt find its tag so I helped her find it.
I swear I couldnt see any tag/code when I was looking at it.
But when I said "What about this?Let's ask them tomorrow." , freakishly I suddenly saw the tag right in front of my eyes.
Scared the shit out of me, but in a funny way.

And almighty came to drop by today! (:
It's good catching up with her gossipping about my ___________.

I'm off to work in a couple of minutes.
So everyone else,
have a nice day! (:

2007-03-11T22:45:00.000+08:00

have you ever loved someone so much that it hurts all the time?
you know you shoulnt love that person but you still want to.

ive always tried my best to let go.
i seriously, honestly, would if i could.

im still waiting for that day when i really really can let it go.
the day i can bravely say
"i give up, both hands down."

2007-03-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

PHOTO TIME! (:

2007-03-09T09:04:00.000+08:00

people come in and out of our lives.generally.in love, in everything.

so sometimes i wonder why we even let them in when we jolly well know they are gona come and go anyways.

honestly, all the time ive been thinking of you.well, almost all the time.
wondering how youre doing even though i very well know myself that you dont give a damn.

i wish things had turned out better the last time.

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I cant help it

Just so you know - Jesse McCartney

2007-03-09T00:00:00.000+08:00

"Love's a bitch." - Shane McCutcheon (The L Word)

2007-03-08T18:11:00.000+08:00

this is the dont know how many day ive been staying home.
ima homie yo mama~
and i had one of the worst nightmares just now.
i dreamt solving a murder case which involved little kids.
and i f. saw dead bodies, blood and scary looking men.

the men were so scary looking, they are scary enough to be Freddy Krueger.
dont know who the f. is Freddy Krueger?
yahoo him and you sure cannot sleep.
scary enough to even scare the shit out of me.
ugh.
i keep thinking about till now.

been bloghopping and sometimes i wanna laugh my ass off at some people.
contradicting.hah.
tell me about it.

and did i mention i seriously cant stand some of your faces especially after what youve said about me?
seriously.
sometimes i feel like punching/boxing/hitting your face so hard that it would come out of your ass or something.
but of course!
you all are the GREATEST of em all.

and me,
im always the wrong one,the bad one.

and i.just.cant.wait.for.tomorrow.

2007-03-07T23:40:00.000+08:00

and the girl is hot.

indeed, everyone loves a latin girl.

and oh i f. love this song.

i actually have nothing interesting to blog about.

i spent the day watching the L word on youtube just to see

Sarah Shahi.

shes so uber hot i spilled one huge bowl of soup while watching.

oh ya, i caught Horlicks ad again on tv.

dont you think Horlicks sounds like Whorelicks?

"Packed with *'Ho 'Ho 'Ho goodness~!"

random.

*'Ho=Whore??

just in case some of you dont get it.

2007-03-06T23:00:00.001+08:00

aaaahh the gooood oldd soongggg.
i fove it. (:

yahoo photos is taking F.O.R.E.V.E.R
its like waiting for a f. tree to f. grow.

spent the day sleeping, like duh, making up for the loss of sleep i had the previous day.
i was walking like a freaking crab and while crossing the road to love's house, i nearly didnt stop walking and wanted to cross the road which was filled with speeding cars.
until the sister screamed at me.LMAO.
i know its not funny.
but its funny when she said this to me,
"please dont die near my house."

so anyshit,
i spent the afternoon just now talking to right hand and she was telling me about this brilliant idea she had : asking me to write a book based on my life story.
i know im kinda too f. young to write one.
but i f. tell you,
i think my life is f. interesting enough to be written into a book.
but one thing worries me.
im just afraid that the person ive loved for a f. nong time would eventually knew.
ya la ya la, call me a f. coward.
i know i am.

so let me think about it, yes?
maybe i'll write it on my secret blogging ground.

2007-03-06T15:46:00.000+08:00

i came online last night after a pathetic half an hr sleep to upload the pics to photobucket.
and it fcking took forever.
so here i am uploading them to yahoo photos.

so peeps once its ready i'll give you guys the link and go grab em from there.

i fcking hate it when people are always late.
once in a while, i wouldnt mind.
but all the time?
and AN HOUR LATE?!
you must be really ridiculous.
it's even MORE ridiculous when you dont bother to sms/call.
bunch of idiots.

turning up late ALL THE TIME is definitely the ultimate turn off for me.

2007-03-05T02:08:00.000+08:00

2007-03-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

todays just a fucking bad day.
so try to be nice tonight if u happen to talk to me online.
im just not in the best mood yeah.

and let me rant here and share with you why.
so i was rushing home like i was supposed to and WOOHOO.
the door was locked.
so i called my favorite brother but he didnt pick up my call.
so i called the other one, the little mudderfuqker,
and he fucking shouted at me.
"DONT CALL MY HANDPHONE LA.WE JUST GO OUT ONLY.COME UNITED SQUARE LAH!"
KNNBCCB.

so i fucking break opened the damn door like how my favorite brother taught me in his sms.
least theres him who i fucking love so much.
i should have fucking broke the windows as well hor.
so next time when this happens again
i can fucking climb into the house since im only living on the 2nd floor.

just who the fuck does he fucking think he is?
and they fucking knew i was out at the fucking career fair.
you wana go out, fine.
but cant fucking call me?
cant ask me along before i fucking went to the career fair?

and this isnt the fucking first time.
dont even ask me about having keys.
dont ask me why they never gave me keys even when im reaching the god damn 20 years of age.
just dont ask me anything.

sometimes i wouldnt like thinking that they are biased.
cos yeah, they fucking feed and cloth me after all.
but even that little mofo can spend on hundreds of dollars worth of his fucking bursary on a fucking handphone.

and whatever happened to MY fucking bursary back in secondary school?
it went POOF okay.
gone.
i didnt even get to taste a single cent of my damn hardwork.

this is so fucked up.

even if u feel left out in school,
when u get home, theres your family who would be there for you, people you look forward talking to.

i look forward to talking to my walls, seriously.
and i dont even wana look at that little f.ker's face.

i definitely cant wait to earn my own cash and fucking leave this place.

2007-03-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

i just had the best of the best dream!WHEEEE!
thought its just a fucking dream.who cares.
least i DREAMT of it.
and it felt so bloody real lah.

so anyways, exams are over!
time to pray supp ppr wont come to me.

went to MOS with 4 of the classmates.
and damn, its bloody nice lah.
now i cant wait to club with hanna-su.
and dance like theres no tomorrow.
which was what i practically did.

and i look forward to doing many many fun things!
*whistles

2007-03-02T02:41:00.000+08:00

PICTURES!
i darn lazy to blog. so i shall leave you guys w pictures okay. (:

At MOS with some of my classmates :

With Hanna-su and Jolene :

2007-02-26T21:13:00.000+08:00

exams start today.and i didnt sleep last night.
i didnt sleep.doesnt mean i studied.
i had enough of broadband shits for the whole fucking day.
and i was falling asleep while doing the paper.
and i lost 16 marks.hoho.
and my sentences are all choppy.
haha.bye.

2007-02-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

3 more days and then i'll be free to do whatever fuck that i want.
no restrictions, no rules.
and fuck you all who tried to set some rules.

i spent some time watching an interview last night and indeed it was very very enlightening.
i feel like sending the links to some of you.
so that after you watched it, you will realise how much you hurt someone's feelings, how much sometimes i just wish you could open your eyes wide and see something and how much you will take back what you have said to me because if you were in my shoes, you would feel the exact same way that i felt.

the final weeks definitely opened my eyes.
and im glad and thankful that i see something i never knew.
suddenly, everything was against me and i realise who are real to me.
who accepts me for who i am.
who loves me for who i am.
and who doesnt judge me at all.
i understand the rest of your beliefs and i hold nothing against them.
everyone has their own belief and if they choose to stand strong in them then i honestly have nothing to say.
as much as i have no rights to change what you believe in,you too have no right to be judgmental and make assumptions abt my belief.

and anyway we dont meet quite often and we wont be, so, i dont care.
i just hope that when youre out there, you will finally realise that the world out there is much worst than the one youve been seeing.

and i dont need you to remind me, to teach me how to lead my life.
even my mum doesnt impose any restrictions on me.
and my dad doesnt question me where did i go, what did i do, every single day of my life.
and they are the people that im uber closed to and i fucking love them.

i really do.

2007-02-25T01:42:00.000+08:00

someone should give me one tight slap.

i youtubed more than i studied.goddamnit.

and i watched She's All That.

Again.

But seriously, how to study?

When the clowns have been singing to themselves since

the time I woke up!

Now they are singing "You are my sunshine"

macam sial.

2007-02-24T02:26:00.000+08:00

i have nothing to blog.
day's awesome.
so yeah.
day was awesome.
very awesome.
i have tonnes of photos.
but i lazy to put all.
i put one first okay.

i hardly show hanna-su's pretty pretty face here.

so here you go :

and i hate my cheeks.

2007-02-22T19:45:00.000+08:00

hahaha i see, ic, i c
hahaha i see i c,ic hahaha
hahahaha i seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee i ccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccc

screw you mofo
I KNOW YOU CAN FUCKING SEE.

thanks very much.

2007-02-21T19:05:00.000+08:00

i was halfway doing my revision and i thought of blogger.
i owe blogger one.
know why?
cos everytime im pissed,or fucking sad, or angry
who do i go to?
blogger.
who do i rant to?
ya la myself la.but i type it out all in blogger and i'll feel a little bit better after that.

if blogger was some hot person i would love to sleep with blogger.

and have you ever wonder sometimes why you bother to do something?
why you bother to be nice?
when all you get is a goddamn slap in the face kinda thing?
i fucking do.

and sometimes im just tired of being nice.
sometimes i feel like doing something un-nice or not nice or whatever.
like pull my brother's not so much hair,
throw a god damn big rock at someone's head,
scream at your face for nothing,
anything but not being nice.
get wtf im trying to say?

so yeah.screw you.screw love.screw you.and screw you.

and i make no apologies for how i choose/chose to repair something that you broke.

2007-02-20T23:25:00.000+08:00

im talking to a few people on MSN and is it just me or is it really annoying when you sense that the other party is fucking bored talking to you maybe cos youre fucking lame or whatever it is when he/she gives those you know..pathetic replies that make you feel somewhat rather fucking pathetic.

i fucking hate it you know i really do.

i dont wanna put the replies here.though my fingers are itching to copy paste them.

i hate it when it seems like im trying too hard to make/keep up a conversation.

maybe i should just shut my mouth now.

im so fucking pathetic.

2007-02-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

a day wasted.i was done chatting at 6am but didnt really sleep till 7+, 8.i was listening to my mp3 emoing.
never mind about that.i finally slept at 8am and woke up at............................................
4pm.
macam babi.
and i fell asleep again at like what..7pm?barely 3 hours after i woke up.

im fucking bored la,period.i can do anything and everything but study.

and now i feel nauseous and i wanna freaking puke on someones face.
random.

2007-02-19T11:38:00.000+08:00

today was spent writing down notes and of course, the only way to relieve stress; youtubing.
caught Take The Lead for the first time and my all time favourite movie She's All That.i think i caught that movie for more than 10 times already but i still aint sick of it.plus, it doesnt hurt that my "idol's" in it.hurhur.who wouldnt wish to look like him.
i bet u many many girls out there melt whenever he smiles.
i know someone close whos madly in love with him since forever.
so for you, here you go :

swoon girls swoon. (:

so anyway, i badly wana go out and bloody mug one of these days.i doubt i can trust myself to study at home cause' there are many many food and once i get tired of eating, my legs would auto move towards my bed.and what do i do next?

yeah, youre damn right.sleep.

and i think today's my mom's birthday.

2007-02-18T21:37:00.000+08:00

I spent CNY today searching for my lost tutorial answers all the pukimak notes I wrote for previous term tests.And fuck, surprisingly I didnt have to spend much time!haha!

They were all in my cupboard collecting a hell lot of dust or dusts (if theres plural form of dust.)
Nothing interesting for me to blog today except that I talked on MSN till 6am last night and I swear I never talked that long on MSN in my whole entire 19 years of life.Surprisingly I was still so awake even after I was done chatting.hoho

I was going through my mail and I found this funny funny thing hanna-su sent to me.
Its damn funny I laughed till I tripped over my LAN cable.

Here it goes :

"NO SPEAKAH DE ENGLISH"

A bus stops and 2 men get on.
They sit down and engage in an animated conversation.
The lady sitting next to them ignores them at first, but her attention is galvanized when she hears one of them say the following:
"Emma come first.
Den I come.
Den two asses come together.
I come once-a-more! .
Two asses, they come together again.
I come again and pee twice.
Then I come one lasta time."
The lady can't take this any more, "You foul-mouthed sex obsessed pig,"
She retorted indignantly.
"In this country. we don't speak aloud in Public places about our sex lives."
"Hey, coola down lady," said the man.
"Who talkin'abouta sex? I'm a justa tellin' my frienda how to spell ' Mississippi '."

$10.00 says you're gonna read this again!

2007-02-18T02:57:00.000+08:00

i spent saturday sleeping my whole life through and dream after dream came.
one of which reminded me of something sucky, something i wish it never happened but it already did and that's just too bad for me.

the conversation we had, the anger that i felt.it was so surreal.

and i never saw you after that.

and one question still remain.

you need to make love to love or you need to love to make love?

2007-02-17T02:16:00.000+08:00

Gisele Bundchen- Magazine Rolling Stones declared her as the most beautiful girl in the world.

and i couldnt agree more.

now let me finish watching the fashion show.the brother is yelling at me.

2007-02-16T23:35:00.001+08:00

words can spread pretty damn fast dont you think?
give it maybe a minute or so.the next thing you know, questions are thrown at you.

it was intentional.
i knew it was gonna come.
i knew how much you cant stand it.
but seriously,

have you ever thought that they are just how they are?

its wrong
its not right
whatever.

what the fuck does it have to do with being right?

you have something against it then say it.
dont start running around the bushes and keep on denying it but at the end of the day
the response would still be the same.

i would love to regret over it , i shouldnt have been clean about it but so what.
seriously so what.
i already did and theres nothing i can do about it.

sometimes its a tad too much to take in.

2007-02-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

the brother kindly accompanied down to this place for a nice waste-of-my-time
session.its really nonsense i tell you.will tell you guys tomorrow.
fucking waste of my precious time.

so we camgigoloed around the area of esplanade and laughed laughed
and gossipped about some ex-schoolmates.
and apparently, we dislike the same bunch of people!
surprise surprise.
we both fucking cant stand those idiots.
really idiots.

hes been so fucking nice recently i wonder if its because
hes growing up or hes just like that
or he knows im gona graduate soon and earn money thus
when i earn money i might be able to spend it on him.

theres once i asked him to come all the way down to tpy central to take
my stuffs home for me so that i can go pasar malam with a girlfriend
and he fucking did so okay.
he came all the way down wear nice nice, wear belt with jeans
with nice nice t-shirt.
just to pass me my wallet and take my stuffs home for me.

what a weirdo.

2007-02-12T21:53:00.000+08:00

bought some stuffs for upcoming valentine's day and boy im so fucking happy!
finally i got em all.
and i finally got goddamn new wallet!
thank you miss right hand. (:
i hope you love your gift too cos i fucking love mine!

shared each other stories and it felt really really good.
mainly because she herself has no idea what is it that have been bothering me.
and to actually pour (almost) everything out,
i feel so damn fking good, really.
thanks for taking the time. (:

im in two minds about coming down to that Robinson's Point interview or dont know what shit is that about.
Especially after what Wei Lin told me from her experience.
I'm gona think about it slowly till tomorrow and ask her again if i should go.
Meanwhile, i shall patiently wait for Victoria's Secret Fashion Show 2006.
i cant wait to see Gisele Bundchen. (:

2007-02-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

i know some of you are tired of reading two to three liners of entries so let me blog properly this time around. (:

did i mention i had napfa?dont ask me how i did okay.LOL.especially 2.4km run.
but i fucking love a few of the other 5 stations.
and i met this nice tall fit guy for sit ups.
i said nice because hes super friendly.
i dont know why, he gave me a gay vibe.
but i dont give a shit, hes nice.

D'cotta mentioned that i was too gentle during the interview.
so what else?some marks gone for that.
shes kinda particular.
so guys, dont talk so soft and gentle during your interview on Wednesday yeah?
shout your lungs out.all the best to you guys.

that night was a really fucking stupid night.
i dont know if you realised how stupid you were.
its stupid and congratulations, it got me so down i did something i didnt even wanna do.
good job, you.

and last night was a huge mistake, i agree.
if i could turn back time i wouldnt do it.
but thats what almost everybody would do wouldnt it.
when you are all lost and messed up and you couldnt think.
its liquidity.you just go with the flow.

2007-02-09T23:45:00.000+08:00

if only you could realise it.

then i wont be in this much of pain.

2007-02-09T00:27:00.000+08:00

2007-02-07T00:19:00.000+08:00

sudden familiarity came back today.
the feeling i thought had been gone for good, was surprisingly back.

but it didnt last.
but like what those mofos always say,

nothing lasts forever

or or

it was good while it last

but seriously,

why cant they just simply last.

and someone said my blog's song not nice.
how can, zihui, how can?
still can tell me Kermit the Frog's song's nicer.
HOW DARE YOU.

2007-02-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

Can't move on... but I can't go home
and I'm not so strong... but I'll make my way
to the place I know
inside my heart
where I used to go to get brave
and I don't want to be lost anymore.

gotta find my way back home.

I don't know where I g0 - but I know I drive alone.
I terribly miss you....more than you'll ever know.
You've got to come back somehow.
You've got to come back somehow.

Can't move on... but I can't go home
and I'm not so strong... but I'll make my way
to the place I know
inside my heart
where I used to go
to get brave and....

Esthero - i drive alone

2007-02-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

and suddenly it all came back to me in last night's dream.

how i would feel dismantled everytime i look at you.

2007-02-04T00:06:00.000+08:00

day's spent with wei ching and su-h shopping for wei ching's stuffs for upcoming CNY.
funny girl..i bet she learnt alot of things today from the both of us.HAHA!

talked about each other's crushes and ex-es and people we used to date and i cant help laughing/smiling by myself when i think back of some.and i know right now both of them cant stand one person i used to hang out with.HAHA.funny people.
and wei ching reminded me of something really really really stupid that i did back in secondary school days which i totally erased from my mind.damn it you little moron. (:

its freaking sunday tomorrow and ive yet to study for monday's netsec test.
wish me luck for that.

2007-02-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

i came home and realised my wireless network isnt working and i couldnt sign in MSN.
i nearly cried.LOL.
see,i cant live without Internet connection.Without MSN/Yahoo Messenger.
throw my mp3,throw my TV away.I dont give a shit.
BUT INTERNET CONNECTION?
no way hozay.

so i searched high and low for that grey grey cable, i dont know whats the name dont ask me.
AND I FOUND IT!
and am using LAN instead.TADA!

BUT BUT BUT

I STILL COULDNT SIGN IN MSN!!!

so i itchy finger here and there and boy, im sucha smartfuck, MSN IS WORKING!!!
my brothers should give me a kiss tonight.
ok, maybe not.just a thank you will do.

enough about that.
thank YOU for being there today.you know who you are. (:
youre like ..
one of the few people who understand me most.
you dont judge me, you dont see me like some other morons do.
and i really appreciate that.really.

i tried to talk but it seems like im trying so hard to.
plus its been really busy and i doubt i could be heard.
i sense it now but i actually saw this coming.
dont even ask if im surprised.

2007-02-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

12 38 am.
and im still here. surfing my life away and blogging.talking about blogging, i realised how much my tagboard is getting so stale and dusty, until oh-so-nice nurul tagged! (:

i forgot to add earlier on that as usual, i screwed the mcomm quiz.
i did study though.
im already stupid enough, set tricky questions some more.of course i will screw this subject up,
time and time again.

life cant get any better than this. (:

school is driving me nuts.

people at home are no different.

lose/losing/lost the person i realised ive always loved.

and i fell sick after much trials of moving on.

big loser i am.

welcome to my life. (:

and fuck february btw.

2007-01-31T21:41:00.001+08:00

and finally the day came.

the day i got to the point where i just lift up my hands and surrender.

the highest point , so high i cant even foresee what's coming next.

today is/was the day.

mcomm tutorial tomorrow and i really dont feel like coming.
down with fever and i doubt my peanut small brain can function just for a second and attempt
damn irritating mcomm questions.
they are so fucking irritating, i rather die than live to do such questions.

2007-01-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

countless of letters, all addressed to you.

one a day,

but i never sent them 'cause i was afraid.

2007-01-29T22:25:00.001+08:00

you know, when you were having one of the most sweetest dreams you ever had and you were suddenly awakened by something which spoilt it ?

how you would try so hard to sleep back and try even harder to dream back of that particular dream you had and try even even harder to go back to where it stopped or start it all over again?

you know its silly and stupid but you still do it each time it happens?

=)

the irony.

2007-01-29T00:44:00.000+08:00

CHECK THIS VID OUT!

hes so fucking cute lah.just watch and you'll know what im talking about.
SO CUTE!

2007-01-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

i need a break from all those broadband shits so here i am.

i have nothing much to say actually.but my hands are just gatal (itchy) and went to type blogger.com

i spent last night talking to hanna-su and boy, did she make me realise so much stuffs.
i know i have been giving quite a hard time to some of you.
but hey, i'm having a hard time too.
i know and i realise that this change is kinda overwhelming.

first, i ____.
and then, i said that i'm ________.

and now this.

plus, it's not helping that school sucks.there are times i feel so damn f****** loserish in school.

you think you know, but you have no idea.

im just exhausted.
maybe i should start watching alot of porn.

but for now, back to where i started.

2007-01-28T02:47:00.000+08:00

A celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempest civil world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives.

there's just something about you.

2007-01-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

i'm just having my moment.

it's not like i've been sleeping around.

or like i've been smoking weed. (though i totally find nothing wrong with that.)

or like i've committed a hit and run.

i'm just having my moment and i need some time.

and that is all.

and i do not give a fuck if you keep on thinking that my entries are all about you.

so fuck you , fuck your thoughts and fuck off.

all that anger aside i spent saturday binging on chocos and i had two packets of nice nice nasi lemak.since you all said im fucking skinny.i shall fucking eat yes?yes.
and i caught casino royale for the 2nd time.

all along i thought daniel craig was ugly.

but i guess i changed my mine now.

in case anyone else caught it who was that sexy spanish looking lady in that movie?

shes so sexy she made me spilled my drink all over the floor.

2007-01-26T23:28:00.001+08:00

At this moment, there are approximately 6 billion people in the world.
Some are running scared.
Some coming home.
Some tell lies to make it through the day.Others are just not facing the truth.
6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls.
And sometimes,

all you need is one.

And as happens, sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much much more than just a moment.

And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment.

And then, the moment was gone.

2007-01-25T21:56:00.000+08:00

And when she breaks down and makes a sound
You never hear her
The way that I do

And when she breaks down and lets you down
I hope you know
That she doesn't mean you

Howie Day - She Says

and sometimes i wish you know how much i _________.

2007-01-24T23:15:00.001+08:00

so.

am i supposed to wear my heart on my sleeve now?

2007-01-22T22:11:00.001+08:00

i really hate school.as in, really really hate school. i never realised how much i really hate school until today(and the past few days).i know i used to say i love to come to school to see people and yada yada all the fucked up shits all came out.but no okay,i dont think so.

i dont know if it's because i'm no longer who i used to be, or im just plain stupid to realise how much school sucks huge time.whatever shit it is, school sucks.period.

and i like keeping my mouth shut nowadays.
tired of telling people stuffs.
i would love to tell why.
but nvm lah.i rather keep my mouth shut and dont type anything.

sometimes i wonder if you realise youre missing something.

2007-01-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

Marc Anthony - Celos

i guess lots of you know how much of an avid fan i am of marc anthony.
and hes as skinny as me. =)

2007-01-21T23:17:00.000+08:00

EPS Photos...

the group.

the class people.

the class people.too.

i bet she doesnt know abt this photo.

the china group member.

3 days spent was not bad lah actually.
made friends with 2 chaps from BIE and played around with their heart beat device.
folded many many paper cranes.
and caught design school's fashion show.
i dont wanna comment much.lets just say there werent any eyecandies that caught my eyes.

back to normal lessons tomorrow and darn, i've yet to do my resume.

2007-01-19T23:36:00.000+08:00

i hate myself.i hate how sometimes i wonder if i would bump into someone but at the same time
wishing i wouldnt when deep down i actually i wish i would.
and no matter how much i keep wishing that i wouldnt bump into that particular person,
fate will always win.

the next thing i knew,

that familiar face was right in front of my eyes.

Engineering Project Show was "fun". =(
A hell lot of secondary school students and no eyecandies.
Today was so boring I asked hanna-su to send some strippers down to my booth,
to which she never did.
Nevertheless, folding the cranes was fun!and irritating lah sometimes.
Cos I'm such big big noob I fold until I dont know how to fold already lah,ass.

We all camwhored/camgigoloed too.
But photos taking forever to upload and I'm so lazy to wait.
Another day okay? =)

2007-01-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

im exhausted,im grumpy,im so screwed up.
and i have yet to finish off MCOMM assignment goddamnit.
PLUS

the most exciting thing ever *drumrolls...

FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS I WILL HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 5.30AM EVERY MORNING.

feel free to congratulate me.

and did i mention i f****ing hate mulkan like hell?
worst name , worst person, worst bitch ever.
i take back all the nice nice things said and you can go to hell.

2007-01-17T00:05:00.000+08:00

Dream away everyday
Try so hard to disregard
The rhythm of the rain that drops
And coincides with the beating of my heart

And with a tear in my eye
Give me the sweetest goodbye
That I ever ever ever did receive

2007-01-16T09:56:00.001+08:00

i woke up in the midst of the best dream ive ever had.

what the fuck lah okay.

fucking anti-climax.

ok!off to goddamn school!

and p.s:iloveyou.

2007-01-16T09:56:00.000+08:00

i woke up in the midst of the best dream ive ever had.

what the fuck lah okay.

fucking anti-climax.

ok!off to goddamn school!

and p.s:iloveyou.

2007-01-16T09:06:00.000+08:00

there are alot of things unsaid which keep running through my mind.

the first thing we actually learnt when we were young was communication,
learning how to talk.

funny how as we grow up, we cant or do not know how to say, how to tell what we exactly want.

but sometimes , some things,

just speak up for themselves.

2007-01-15T16:44:00.000+08:00

Missoni Spring Summer 2007

2007-01-15T08:56:00.001+08:00

more
-adjective, compar. of much or many with most as superl.
1.in greater quantity, amount, measure, degree, or number
2.additional or further

you know sometimes when you have someone pouring tea/coffee/whatever for you and he/she would ask you to say when to stop.

or like, when you have someone massaging you and he/she would say "tell me when you want me to stop".

but you never really did?

we don't usually say when because there's always something about the possibility.
of more.

More tea, more coffee, more time, more sex, more love? more anything.

More is better.

2007-01-14T16:01:00.000+08:00

one of the feelings i hate most would be guilt.for the past few months guilt had been my very best friend and i got wasted.well, almost.past stuffs actually taught me alot.
all of us are actually left with a choice.

and that includes me.

Either let the guilt throw me back into the behaviour that got me into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do my very best to move on.

point number 2, thats what i chose.
choose.

i was having a chat with one of my bros and i was quite surprised that it got pretty deep in the end.and both of us still could go on talking without any discomfort (we hardly talk at home).
we bumped into his friend recently with whom he was quite close during primary school and we started to talk about close friends and people we meet/met along the way.

At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody.

So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's a load of bull usually. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by.
No matter how much we hurt them.

The people who are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.

And of course, for sure, sometimes close can be too close.
But sometimes, that invasion of personal space,
it can be exactly what you need.

Well, sometimes.

2007-01-13T16:39:00.000+08:00

if theres one thing i learnt pretty well it would be

never make someone a priority if they only make you an option.

period.

2007-01-13T13:40:00.000+08:00

im going crazy.
thanks to the few ones who drive me crazy in school, damn it.
like just now, i was near to losing it, i swear i could have throw that fucking PC at you.
a rush of blood to the head.
and ive been answering questions in a wtf ways.

like yesterday, serene asked me "why you never eat today?"
and i answered "i have no regrets."
when it should be "i have no mood."

and while on bus we were talking about some guy
and i said "he looks more Mat than malay."
when it should be "he looks more Mat than Ah Beng."

things are constantly running through my mind.

thats nothing new anyway.

career fair was okay lah.
nothing interest me except for that prison officer job.
other than, like JobStreet, i just stopped by to get free stuffs, like free Cleo magazine.
Cleo magazine.
nothing for me to see.

it beats me how some people can be so into themselves, making situations so much more than what it seems.
sometimes too much more than what it seems.
assuming things which never happened in the place.
probing till you get what you want.
you are sick.

2007-01-11T14:10:00.000+08:00

Viva2 wasnt too bad.Did I mention that I love D'Cotta?LOL.She's so damn nice lah.
and pretty too, according to my pal.

Lecture(s) were freaking boring lah.
My attention span hardly lasted for even 5 minutes.Dozing off pretty much most of the time.

I know I was praising the youngest moron in my house about being so sweet recently.
I WANA TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID LAH.
I bought the big big toblerone bar recently and what the fish, it was gone within one day.
The next day when I opened my fridge, toblerone vanished into thin air.

I wouldnt mind if they ate like half or quarter or 3/10 or whatever lah okay.
BUT THE WHOLE BAR IS GONE!

Few days ago he bought one too,but I ate only ONE TRIANGLE OF IT YOU KNOW.
I just woke up and was walking aimlessly to the kitchen when he suddenly popped out of nowhere standing in front of me asking "You got eat my toblerone ah?"
I was quite suprised lah.I mean, ONE FREAKING TRIANGLE ONLY LEH.
Got so much difference meh?

So I honestly answered him "Yeah,one only what.You count how many triangles in your toblerone everyday ah?"

And he screamed "YEAH?!" -_-"

And now, out of revenge, my whole toblerone bar is gone.

2007-01-11T05:33:00.000+08:00

Still in school waiting for our turn for Viva2.
I DETEST PRESENTATIONS. =(

and it's not helping that im fucking sleepy.

the girls are out to change into their formal wear.

and im dying of fucking boredom here.

2007-01-09T14:00:00.000+08:00

I had been thinking of what to wear to school today last night.
And fuck lah, actually I wanted to wear stripes today.
So I ransacked my wardrobe looking for the white long sleeved one.
But whattheheck I couldnt find the goddamn shirt.

And it was already 11am.School fucking starts at TWELVE.
So i went over to morons' room and asked if they saw it.
Apparently I was talking to my walls.

To my horror, none's around.
Ya lah,one's in school.But the other one?
So early.Shopping centres havent even fully opened.

I was getting late so I just snatched the blue checkered and fucking wore it.
Overall, school was alright.I was told that I was pretty energetic today.
Laughed my ass off disturbing people like Serene and Yanyan. =x

ANYWAY

I was walking home when I suddenly bumped into this boy who seemed like he's wearing my
goddamn shirt.

Who else?It was Qahar.

But then again, like whats new lah.

Come to think of it,he went out since morning till night.
That ass.
I want my carefree after-o's-days too. =(

Anyshit,
I need to find job newspaper cutout(s) for CCOM tomorrow morning.
But whatthefug,
I can hardly find anything.
IT/Infocom sections are as small as 3 matchboxes.At most, 5 matchboxes.
Depressing, really.

so how now fat cow?

2007-01-08T16:46:00.000+08:00

The OC - it's over.

I remember getting hooked on The O.C. when it first aired right after O levels.
Without fail every Thursday I will sit in front of the TV with junk food catching it.

I'm not suprised that it's gonna stop airing after season 4 though.
Too much drama they probably ran out of ideas.
Besides, Marissa is dead. =(
How can that be when I bet 80% of the OC fan population are her fans?
And that includes me.
OC is also where I find ideas on how to dress up to school.LOL.
dont you agree with me, Su-hanna?
And up till now I dont know why none of my classmates catch the OC! =(
I always end up talking to myself about OC.

I'm so gonna buy their DVDs.

But I'm more upset about the split between Adam Brody and Rachel Bilson (the girl in pink and the dude with tie on).
They are like. .the most cutest couple lah can.
But I bet they're gonna get back together. =)

2007-01-07T19:01:00.000+08:00

It's 3am on a Sunday morning and I was in a good mood to change my bloody boring blogskin.
Yes yes, I know you cant agree more. =) New skin, New year, New me?

SO! I was watching Dirty Dancing:Havana Nights vid clips on YouTube (sadly, there aint many vids there) and I totally fell in love with that damn movie.
Did I mention that Romola Garai is so damn hot?
so is Diego Luna lah.

Listen to that goddamn nice song on your left!If you have it, be nice and send it to me. =)

Happy Sunday !

2007-01-06T16:45:00.000+08:00

today was a damn great day.
please dont come and burst my bubbles.
thank you. =)

2007-01-03T13:40:00.000+08:00

back to school tomorrow and yay! I cant wait.neither can my brother.i think.he's the only one left in that disgusting school.and while he was doing his shoelace he looked so glum.so I asked

me : why so sad?noone to go school with anymore righhhttttttt?
qahar : ya la.I grad already.thats why he sad.
him : kepala hotak kau.(means "your head ah".) sad for what.
both of us look at him with that "u sure?" look.
him : okay la.little bit lah.
I WAS SHOCKED LA.so sweet.so gay also la.but SWEET LA CAN.
did I mention that hes the tallest among us?Qahar is hulky but shorter than this little moron.
so can you imagine seeing someone so big and tall sulking because hes got noone to go school with?
qahar : okaylah.we send you lah tmr.okay ah nad?*laughs
me : *laughs.can.aft that i can go to school also what.i ask father along also.wanna ask mother?
him : tak kelakar eh. (means "not funny eh") i sec 4 not sec 1.

I have this feeling I will take back what I said today when one day he piss me off.HAHA.
like what's new. =)