the day i got to the point where i just lift up my hands and surrender.
the highest point , so high i cant even foresee what's coming next.
today is/was the day.
mcomm tutorial tomorrow and i really dont feel like coming. down with fever and i doubt my peanut small brain can function just for a second and attempt damn irritating mcomm questions. they are so fucking irritating, i rather die than live to do such questions.
RUNWAY scheduled at 9:41 PM
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
countless of letters, all addressed to you.
one a day,
but i never sent them 'cause i was afraid.
RUNWAY scheduled at 9:45 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
you know, when you were having one of the most sweetest dreams you ever had and you were suddenly awakened by something which spoilt it ?
how you would try so hard to sleep back and try even harder to dream back of that particular dream you had and try even even harder to go back to where it stopped or start it all over again?
you know its silly and stupid but you still do it each time it happens?
=)
the irony.
RUNWAY scheduled at 10:25 PM
CHECK THIS VID OUT!
hes so fucking cute lah.just watch and you'll know what im talking about. SO CUTE!
RUNWAY scheduled at 12:44 AM
Sunday, January 28, 2007
i need a break from all those broadband shits so here i am.
i have nothing much to say actually.but my hands are just gatal (itchy) and went to type blogger.com
i spent last night talking to hanna-su and boy, did she make me realise so much stuffs. i know i have been giving quite a hard time to some of you. but hey, i'm having a hard time too. i know and i realise that this change is kinda overwhelming.
first, i ____. and then, i said that i'm ________.
and now this.
plus, it's not helping that school sucks.there are times i feel so damn f****** loserish in school.
you think you know, but you have no idea.
im just exhausted. maybe i should start watching alot of porn.
but for now, back to where i started.
RUNWAY scheduled at 3:33 PM
A celebration of the chance taken and the challenge that lies ahead. For two will always be stronger than one, like a team braced against the tempest civil world. And love will always be the guiding force in our lives.
there's just something about you.
RUNWAY scheduled at 2:47 AM
i'm just having my moment.
it's not like i've been sleeping around.
or like i've been smoking weed. (though i totally find nothing wrong with that.)
or like i've committed a hit and run.
i'm just having my moment and i need some time.
and that is all.
and i do not give a fuck if you keep on thinking that my entries are all about you.
so fuck you , fuck your thoughts and fuck off.
all that anger aside i spent saturday binging on chocos and i had two packets of nice nice nasi lemak.since you all said im fucking skinny.i shall fucking eat yes?yes. and i caught casino royale for the 2nd time.
all along i thought daniel craig was ugly.
but i guess i changed my mine now.
in case anyone else caught it who was that sexy spanish looking lady in that movie?
shes so sexy she made me spilled my drink all over the floor.
RUNWAY scheduled at 1:27 AM
Friday, January 26, 2007
At this moment, there are approximately 6 billion people in the world. Some are running scared. Some coming home. Some tell lies to make it through the day.Others are just not facing the truth. 6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls. And sometimes,
all you need is one.
And as happens, sometimes, a moment settled and hovered and remained for much much more than just a moment.
And sound stopped and movement stopped for much, much more than a moment.
And then, the moment was gone.
RUNWAY scheduled at 11:28 PM
Thursday, January 25, 2007
And when she breaks down and makes a sound You never hear her The way that I do
And when she breaks down and lets you down I hope you know That she doesn't mean you
Howie Day - She Says
and sometimes i wish you know how much i _________.
RUNWAY scheduled at 9:56 PM
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
so.
am i supposed to wear my heart on my sleeve now?
RUNWAY scheduled at 11:15 PM
Monday, January 22, 2007
i really hate school.as in, really really hate school. i never realised how much i really hate school until today(and the past few days).i know i used to say i love to come to school to see people and yada yada all the fucked up shits all came out.but no okay,i dont think so.
i dont know if it's because i'm no longer who i used to be, or im just plain stupid to realise how much school sucks huge time.whatever shit it is, school sucks.period.
and i like keeping my mouth shut nowadays. tired of telling people stuffs. i would love to tell why. but nvm lah.i rather keep my mouth shut and dont type anything.
sometimes i wonder if you realise youre missing something.
RUNWAY scheduled at 10:11 PM
Marc Anthony - Celos
i guess lots of you know how much of an avid fan i am of marc anthony. and hes as skinny as me. =)
3 days spent was not bad lah actually. made friends with 2 chaps from BIE and played around with their heart beat device. folded many many paper cranes. and caught design school's fashion show. i dont wanna comment much.lets just say there werent any eyecandies that caught my eyes.
back to normal lessons tomorrow and darn, i've yet to do my resume.
RUNWAY scheduled at 11:17 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
i hate myself.i hate how sometimes i wonder if i would bump into someone but at the same time wishing i wouldnt when deep down i actually i wish i would. and no matter how much i keep wishing that i wouldnt bump into that particular person, fate will always win.
the next thing i knew,
that familiar face was right in front of my eyes.
Engineering Project Show was "fun". =( A hell lot of secondary school students and no eyecandies. Today was so boring I asked hanna-su to send some strippers down to my booth, to which she never did. Nevertheless, folding the cranes was fun!and irritating lah sometimes. Cos I'm such big big noob I fold until I dont know how to fold already lah,ass.
We all camwhored/camgigoloed too. But photos taking forever to upload and I'm so lazy to wait. Another day okay? =)
RUNWAY scheduled at 11:36 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
im exhausted,im grumpy,im so screwed up. and i have yet to finish off MCOMM assignment goddamnit. PLUS
the most exciting thing ever *drumrolls...
FOR THE NEXT 3 DAYS I WILL HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 5.30AM EVERY MORNING.
feel free to congratulate me.
and did i mention i f****ing hate mulkan like hell? worst name , worst person, worst bitch ever. i take back all the nice nice things said and you can go to hell.
RUNWAY scheduled at 10:15 PM
Dream away everyday Try so hard to disregard The rhythm of the rain that drops And coincides with the beating of my heart
And with a tear in my eye Give me the sweetest goodbye That I ever ever ever did receive
RUNWAY scheduled at 12:05 AM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
i woke up in the midst of the best dream ive ever had.
what the fuck lah okay.
fucking anti-climax.
ok!off to goddamn school!
and p.s:iloveyou.
RUNWAY scheduled at 9:56 AM
i woke up in the midst of the best dream ive ever had.
what the fuck lah okay.
fucking anti-climax.
ok!off to goddamn school!
and p.s:iloveyou.
RUNWAY scheduled at 9:56 AM
there are alot of things unsaid which keep running through my mind.
the first thing we actually learnt when we were young was communication, learning how to talk.
funny how as we grow up, we cant or do not know how to say, how to tell what we exactly want.
but sometimes , some things,
just speak up for themselves.
RUNWAY scheduled at 9:06 AM
Monday, January 15, 2007
Missoni Spring Summer 2007
RUNWAY scheduled at 4:44 PM
more -adjective, compar. of much or many with most as superl. 1.in greater quantity, amount, measure, degree, or number 2.additional or further
you know sometimes when you have someone pouring tea/coffee/whatever for you and he/she would ask you to say when to stop.
or like, when you have someone massaging you and he/she would say "tell me when you want me to stop".
but you never really did?
we don't usually say when because there's always something about the possibility. of more.
More tea, more coffee, more time, more sex, more love? more anything.
More is better.
RUNWAY scheduled at 8:56 AM
Sunday, January 14, 2007
one of the feelings i hate most would be guilt.for the past few months guilt had been my very best friend and i got wasted.well, almost.past stuffs actually taught me alot. all of us are actually left with a choice.
and that includes me.
Either let the guilt throw me back into the behaviour that got me into trouble in the first place, or learn from the guilt and do my very best to move on.
point number 2, thats what i chose. choose.
i was having a chat with one of my bros and i was quite surprised that it got pretty deep in the end.and both of us still could go on talking without any discomfort (we hardly talk at home). we bumped into his friend recently with whom he was quite close during primary school and we started to talk about close friends and people we meet/met along the way.
At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody.
So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's a load of bull usually. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them.
The people who are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping.
And of course, for sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.
Well, sometimes.
RUNWAY scheduled at 4:01 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
if theres one thing i learnt pretty well it would be
never make someone a priority if they only make you an option.
period.
RUNWAY scheduled at 4:39 PM
im going crazy. thanks to the few ones who drive me crazy in school, damn it. like just now, i was near to losing it, i swear i could have throw that fucking PC at you. a rush of blood to the head. and ive been answering questions in a wtf ways.
like yesterday, serene asked me "why you never eat today?" and i answered "i have no regrets." when it should be "i have no mood."
and while on bus we were talking about some guy and i said "he looks more Mat than malay." when it should be "he looks more Mat than Ah Beng."
things are constantly running through my mind.
thats nothing new anyway.
career fair was okay lah. nothing interest me except for that prison officer job. other than, like JobStreet, i just stopped by to get free stuffs, like free Cleo magazine. Cleo magazine. nothing for me to see.
it beats me how some people can be so into themselves, making situations so much more than what it seems. sometimes too much more than what it seems. assuming things which never happened in the place. probing till you get what you want. you are sick.
RUNWAY scheduled at 1:40 PM
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Viva2 wasnt too bad.Did I mention that I love D'Cotta?LOL.She's so damn nice lah. and pretty too, according to my pal.
Lecture(s) were freaking boring lah. My attention span hardly lasted for even 5 minutes.Dozing off pretty much most of the time.
I know I was praising the youngest moron in my house about being so sweet recently. I WANA TAKE BACK WHAT I SAID LAH. I bought the big big toblerone bar recently and what the fish, it was gone within one day. The next day when I opened my fridge, toblerone vanished into thin air.
I wouldnt mind if they ate like half or quarter or 3/10 or whatever lah okay. BUT THE WHOLE BAR IS GONE!
Few days ago he bought one too,but I ate only ONE TRIANGLE OF IT YOU KNOW. I just woke up and was walking aimlessly to the kitchen when he suddenly popped out of nowhere standing in front of me asking "You got eat my toblerone ah?" I was quite suprised lah.I mean, ONE FREAKING TRIANGLE ONLY LEH. Got so much difference meh?
So I honestly answered him "Yeah,one only what.You count how many triangles in your toblerone everyday ah?"
And he screamed "YEAH?!" -_-"
And now, out of revenge, my whole toblerone bar is gone.
RUNWAY scheduled at 2:10 PM
Still in school waiting for our turn for Viva2. I DETEST PRESENTATIONS. =(
and it's not helping that im fucking sleepy.
the girls are out to change into their formal wear.
and im dying of fucking boredom here.
RUNWAY scheduled at 5:33 AM
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
I had been thinking of what to wear to school today last night. And fuck lah, actually I wanted to wear stripes today. So I ransacked my wardrobe looking for the white long sleeved one. But whattheheck I couldnt find the goddamn shirt.
And it was already 11am.School fucking starts at TWELVE. So i went over to morons' room and asked if they saw it. Apparently I was talking to my walls.
To my horror, none's around. Ya lah,one's in school.But the other one? So early.Shopping centres havent even fully opened.
I was getting late so I just snatched the blue checkered and fucking wore it. Overall, school was alright.I was told that I was pretty energetic today. Laughed my ass off disturbing people like Serene and Yanyan. =x
ANYWAY
I was walking home when I suddenly bumped into this boy who seemed like he's wearing my goddamn shirt.
Who else?It was Qahar.
But then again, like whats new lah.
Come to think of it,he went out since morning till night. That ass. I want my carefree after-o's-days too. =(
Anyshit, I need to find job newspaper cutout(s) for CCOM tomorrow morning. But whatthefug, I can hardly find anything. IT/Infocom sections are as small as 3 matchboxes.At most, 5 matchboxes. Depressing, really.
so how now fat cow?
RUNWAY scheduled at 2:00 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
The OC - it's over.
I remember getting hooked on The O.C. when it first aired right after O levels. Without fail every Thursday I will sit in front of the TV with junk food catching it.
I'm not suprised that it's gonna stop airing after season 4 though. Too much drama they probably ran out of ideas. Besides, Marissa is dead. =( How can that be when I bet 80% of the OC fan population are her fans? And that includes me. OC is also where I find ideas on how to dress up to school.LOL. dont you agree with me, Su-hanna? And up till now I dont know why none of my classmates catch the OC! =( I always end up talking to myself about OC.
I'm so gonna buy their DVDs.
But I'm more upset about the split between Adam Brody and Rachel Bilson (the girl in pink and the dude with tie on). They are like. .the most cutest couple lah can. But I bet they're gonna get back together. =)
RUNWAY scheduled at 4:46 PM
Sunday, January 07, 2007
It's 3am on a Sunday morning and I was in a good mood to change my bloody boring blogskin. Yes yes, I know you cant agree more. =) New skin, New year, New me?
SO! I was watching Dirty Dancing:Havana Nights vid clips on YouTube (sadly, there aint many vids there) and I totally fell in love with that damn movie. Did I mention that Romola Garai is so damn hot? so is Diego Luna lah.
Listen to that goddamn nice song on your left!If you have it, be nice and send it to me. =)
Happy Sunday !
RUNWAY scheduled at 7:01 PM
Saturday, January 06, 2007
today was a damn great day. please dont come and burst my bubbles. thank you. =)
RUNWAY scheduled at 4:45 PM
Wednesday, January 03, 2007
back to school tomorrow and yay! I cant wait.neither can my brother.i think.he's the only one left in that disgusting school.and while he was doing his shoelace he looked so glum.so I asked
me : why so sad?noone to go school with anymore righhhttttttt? qahar : ya la.I grad already.thats why he sad. him : kepala hotak kau.(means "your head ah".) sad for what. both of us look at him with that "u sure?" look. him : okay la.little bit lah. I WAS SHOCKED LA.so sweet.so gay also la.but SWEET LA CAN. did I mention that hes the tallest among us?Qahar is hulky but shorter than this little moron. so can you imagine seeing someone so big and tall sulking because hes got noone to go school with? qahar : okaylah.we send you lah tmr.okay ah nad?*laughs me : *laughs.can.aft that i can go to school also what.i ask father along also.wanna ask mother? him : tak kelakar eh. (means "not funny eh") i sec 4 not sec 1.
I have this feeling I will take back what I said today when one day he piss me off.HAHA. like what's new. =)
RUNWAY scheduled at 1:40 PM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Its the start of 2007 so Happy New Year to you guys. =)
Had a bloody tiring night and I havent been sleeping enough.And it's not helping that I'm in a ticked off mood too.
2006 wasnt a great year at all (every year also not great lah.whats the fucking diff) But well I just wana extend a huge huge THANK YOU to you guys who had/have been there for me. =) heart you guys a hell lot.
New year's eve was spent walking from town to city hall and then back to town.Spend the rest of the hours till 1st train home at Su-h's place talking and watching DVD.Thanks again girl else I probably sit unglamorously by some roadside smoking till I wana die.Which I roughly did today.But not by the roadside la of course.
And suddenly I dont feel like blogging anymore.Anti climax yeah.But well I dont care.haha happy new year everyone =)
And that stupid Aliff just went offline without sending last night's photos.grr..
