Friday, October 28, 2005

"i got what i want.but its not what i need."

me & my bro jus stood there looking at the both of them,screaming
at each others' faces.this always happen.both will say things that
they have got to say like lawyers tryin to defend their clients
and the kids will just stand there and listen to them and i duno..
are we supposed to judge??my heart nearly stopped when my dad said he's
gonna ___________________.i mean ..yah..they always say tt but
never really did the thing but what if its really gonna happen now?
im so confused i dont even know which one to believe.
every year i go through such shit and everytime i cry but not today.
maybe im alr immuned to it.just when i thought the worst has past me
it has now slaps me back right into my face.im not here to tell everyone
about the bad side of any of them.im just here to rant and pretend someone's
listening to me like the way me and my bro listened to them jus now.
i know its the adults' problem and i shouldnt like..think so much about it?but how
cant i?my dad's alr left to find a place for my grandma(and most likely him too) to
stay.i dont know how true is that but i hope not.i wouldnt mind if they still live together
but dont talk to each other.i mean...i dont really see any difference cos when one goes to
work,the other comes back.and now im starting to see "marriage" as something really bad.
i hope things would get a hell lot better.so much better that i wouldnt have to spend a sad
melancholic hari raya when im supposed to have fun and collect as much money as i could
so i can go shopping.i dont like to cry on a happy yappy day. =)

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